Life Snippets:
Are you always asking or wondering if you made the right decision, or why you made it at all? I do! I am a second guesser. I've made some questionable decisions in my past and I'm tired of messing up!! News flash...THERE ARE GOING TO BE MESS UPS in life. Even after weighing the pros and cons. Doing all of the research. Asking all of the questions. Doing all the things that should've been done. At some point something is going to mess up that will make you and me ask the question, "Why?"
I had to make a big decision. I prayed, I questioned, I researched, I kept it to myself, I reached out, I prayed more, I pondered, and still didn't know what to do. But I knew what needed to be done. Why was I doing this to myself? Why wasn't I trusting myself to make the decision? Other people have trusted me to give sound advice. Why was it so hard for me to take what I have given to so many others? Where did this come from?
I said earlier that I was tired of messing up; NO MORE WRONG TURNS!!! I've also been questioned so many times about decisions I have made. Somewhere along the way the voices began to stick with me (I'm not finger pointing, or playing victim, just stating the facts). I've spent years pondering decisions I've made all because other people questioned me. Either way there wasn't much to be done about the past. What is done is done and can't be changed. Mmm...I guess I could live in the past, but that's no fun. I had to quiet the noise and make a choice.
That left me with two options, to do the thing that needed to be done, or do nothing and let things stay the same. I knew the outcome of the latter. That was another part of it. I knew what was to come if I chose the second option. Choosing the more logical, but unknown first choice was scary (fear sucks!) What if it was the wrong decision? Would I be able to recover from it? I don't know. But I do know that I would learn from it, just like I had with previous decisions (good and bad).
What am I saying? Make up your mind. Make a choice and stick to it. It's not necessarily the decision that keeps us from moving forward, it's the doubt. IF it doesn't work out the way it was imagined, that's okay. What lesson was learned? Appreciate the lesson, learn from it, and keep walking on the water. That's the only way we will get where we want to go.
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